Today was quite an emotional day! You have been on my mind every second, which is ironic, because I found out that the people who are lucky enough to be with you every second haven't really been giving you a second thought!!!! I can't begin to tell you how much that hurts me. From the moment I saw your little face on Reece's Rainbow, I knew you were mine. The problem with this is...I am EXTREMELY protective of what is mine :-) I feel like a momma bear and you are my new little cub. I will fight for you no matter what the cost to me! I have never held you in my arms, but sweet Evan, let me tell you this as 100% truth....I LOVE you! I may not have given birth to you...but you are my son! You may have been born with an extra chromosome....but I think you are amazingly beautiful! You may be in a crib half-way around the world....but in my heart, you are right here!
I have to apologize to you that I cannot be there right now. I cannot pick you up and snuggle you and blow raspberries on your cheek like I am dying to do. But I will...I promise you...I will!!! I promise that we will make up for lost time and you will receive all of the hugs and kisses that you have missed out on and that you deserve! Very soon, all of our hearts will be complete <3
I also found out that your real name is _____. I suspected that's what it was from the videos that we were sent, but I didn't know for sure. We knew Evan wasn't your official name, but the more we said it, the more it seemed to stick. I guess I'm glad that I didn't get a 31-tote with "Evan" embroidered on it! Haha!! Maybe you should be E Evan Orta...EEO :-) We'll figure it out sweet boy. For now, know that we love you, we'll be thinking about you, and we're praying that we will be united as soon as possible!! <3